++ wide eyed wonderfuck ++

xx_adore_xx @ 2006-06-09T03:58:00

2006-06-09T02:57:19Z

So deep, that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep, I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me, I...
I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me, I...

[Chorus:]
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Unharmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream
"FUCK ME", I..

[Chorus:]
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream "FUCK ME"

[Chorus:]
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got

i hate this band but this song seems appropriate,

xx_adore_xx @ 2006-06-09T03:54:00

2006-06-09T02:54:07Z

its weird how someone you know for such a short time csan fuck your head up so much.
i kinda feel punched in the face and like my guts twisting.
those were my veins.

xx_adore_xx @ 2006-04-27T03:12:00

2006-04-27T02:19:58Z

did a photoshoot in luke's garden for marie and i was in underwear again. god why am i always naked *ponders* ah well. luke took great delight in telling me about the woodlice that populate the garden sofa i was sitting on. lovely.
medium format images at dusk so im thinking marie will have done a good job. ;)

i took an iq test its 3am and i really am that bored.

Your IQ score is 122!
You are equipped with a verbal arsenal that enables you to understand complex issues and communicate on a particularly high level, making you a Word Warrior. Your command of words is so powerful that you are also a terrific communicator -- able to articulate big ideas to just about anyone.

The power of words translates to fresh ideas off paper too, in both artistic and creative pursuits. This allows you to be a visionary -- to extrapolate and come up with a multitude of fresh ideas
.
get me. apparently im categorised as more intelligent than 91% of people.
this makes me fear for the general public.
it makes me laugh that i got this test from rupert. hehe.
LOVE!

also missie i love you long time etc...and the 2nd june your ass is mine ya hear?

xx_adore_xx @ 2006-04-26T21:06:00

2006-04-26T20:06:14Z

hummm *looks at last entry* tiffany needs to stop drinking and getting emo. oh yes she does.

xx_adore_xx @ 2006-04-26T04:12:00

2006-04-26T03:13:23Z

i can't help thinking i could have done things differently in all aspects of my life, because all around me things keep crashing down, but minutes later they're replace by an indefinate number of distractions. things burn out and fade away and i feel guilty because then i forget because of the new promises that are blurring my vision. my concentration levels go into free fall until im there again and he's there holding me but it's never the same.
interchangeable faces pigment my existence and something so colourful fades before i've given it the change to fulfill its true potential. restraint and patience are both traits i fail to exhibit on a regular basis, and although i'm not wounded by it, others can be and i just can't hold up anymore.

xx_adore_xx @ 2006-03-15T17:36:00

2006-03-15T17:42:12Z

hmmm i think i may stop drinking for awhile after last saturday. the final straw was having straight tequila poured down my throat by beckie. *shudder* i got up on sunday morning and fell straight down again.
although drinking may have its merits....lisa and i got trashed at work last night after both being given shit stage music (bon jovi and s club yo) and then proceeded to strom the room and got loads of dances. go figure. alcohol and confidence i guess.

xx_adore_xx @ 2006-02-28T18:37:00

2006-02-28T18:48:26Z

argh i have so little time left for my digital project....and a welcomed 8 weeks until the narrative one is in. meanwhile there are a million rehersals (daniel) for texas chainsaw show on the 24th march....so much travelling back and forth to london will incur.

saturday was much fun starting at too 2 much for jodie harsh's circus birthday bash....about 20 of us got ready at stefan's preparty and left looking suitably....well...circus. and took up at least half a train carriage with hair, shoes and feathers. (half of which ended up in my stuff izzie) none the less it was suitably fabulous. we did manage to loose a few people on the way though....guy dressed as a woman and anita with her two heads...?>
bohemia at the buffalo bar next stop...but the queue was long and i was hungry (always with the food) so i skipped and went to brixton still in full crying clown make-up. i did managed to change into some more sensible clothes on the top deck of the n35 without flashing though. go me.

xx_adore_xx @ 2006-02-18T19:51:00

2006-02-18T19:55:11Z

if i'm going to be publicly insulted i'd have thought that the least one could do was get location facts right.

there's nothing that says i'm grown up more than myspace and lj beef.

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-11-28T17:09:00

2005-11-28T17:11:17Z

so what are photographers interested in? ha.
sorry i cut you out becca you looked really hot but it was for someone lol xxxx

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-11-24T15:00:00

2005-11-24T15:01:53Z

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-11-11T04:33:00

2005-11-11T12:44:24Z

so next week i hae a field trip to paris...which is good.the wek after sven leaves for australia...which is shit. but my boyfriend comes to see me this weekend yay etc....
im still sick i fell like shit and i still dont like it here.
im wasting the time by having pole dancing lessons. clever me.

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-10-20T08:21:00

2005-10-20T15:23:29Z

i hate it here.
it's full of typical student yob types with no class and less personality.
i thought art school would be wonderful.
yes.

im running for student union.
i'm that bored.

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-09-06T23:59:00

2005-09-06T23:02:37Z

im not coping well with the moving from london idea.
the leaving my boyfriend idea
the my boyfirend and best friend going back to australia idea
the izzie leaving idea
everything
***the trade show was kind of cool though, i got some liquor brand hairpins and top, sparkly pirate necklace, new purse, new plug etc....and all i had to do was orders and look good. pf. HA.

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-08-29T19:29:00

2005-08-29T18:28:28Z

asphixine and i before last SC ...

pirate night 2

2005-08-29T18:23:55Z

this speaks for itself.
i blame sven.
this accompanies the pirate post below somewhere.

xx

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-08-25T18:41:00

2005-08-25T17:39:51Z

Your LJ Prison by redfrog021
Username
Favorite Deadly Sin
You are convicted of	Sticking up a 7-11 for Twinkies
And sentenced to	10 years
Warden	misscmoody
Abusive redneck guard	asphixine
Easy to bribe guard	cayce_p
Cellmate	hypnox
Wants to make you their bitch	purrrfect_caz
Drops soap in the shower on purpose	candyflossb
Works in the laundry and smells people's undies	nihilist_martyr
Comes to see you for 'conjugal visits'	redspiderorchid

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xx_adore_xx @ 2005-08-22T00:44:00

2005-08-21T23:43:14Z

i took my hair out today...i only had it in for two weeks but at christina's party yesterday i got fake blood in it whilst playing dead with nathan in the bathtub. (pictures to come) i need to get over my bathtub thing (see pirate post escapade below somewhere) my head feels nice and clean and much lighter though. take fire out of heaven's clenched fist cracks slip between my desire to keep your broken heart bleeding just hold tight and tell another fucking joke to pacify the urge for suicide you know it won't keep waiting so say goodbye 'cause I never want to hear another word about you and I you know...you never stop now we started out just running out spreading like wings and we are oneI pulled you right out of the gutter when I could have bee lined we started out just running out spreading like wings and what were we supposed to do? You belong to me and what are we supposed to do? Suck it in, spit it out you know that two's a crowd Expectant mother's stillborn baby beauty cries aloud and tries to tell you what I'm about now don't you worry about a little thing like this it only hurts just a bit I promise I'm going to take you a mile high so don't you cry 'cause it'll just be baby baby baby nonstop until the end of the night so keep your mouth shut I can tell you're a good fuck just by the way you wear that innocent look don't you know that enough is never enough I made you now you are property I can't discard aw i love dillinger escape plan. i also like nathan hehe

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-08-19T16:01:00

2005-08-19T15:01:34Z

so synthetic culture tonight yes?
good. ewww rain + garden + synthetic hair = arghghghghgh.
anyway.
i'm bored as fuck.

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-08-19T01:32:00

2005-08-19T00:32:50Z

i just saw th biggest spider ever.
it was about the size of my hand.
my mum dug up half the garden the other day and disturbed them all so they've decided to camp up in my room it would seem.
woo woo.

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-08-18T16:12:00

2005-08-18T15:12:04Z

a- photography
a - french
b - english lit.

fair play.
*shrugs*

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-08-15T18:32:00

2005-08-15T17:38:54Z

saturday night was quite strange.
went to bertrand's place to get ready for a club called Issst at the Key in king's cross, drank much, argued with sven ...izzie made my hair pretty (im still learning how to cope with the fake har) i smashed sven's head into a wall and he fell over...but he's done worse such as cigarette burning my arm.
i think our friendship may be a little to abusive for our own good.

anyways we went out....bertrand in sci-fi silver and white pretty mode, stefan in a nike cycling jumpsuit and furry jacket...me and izzie in our normal pretty clubbing stuff and we got there and they took about 10 full minutes to serch my bag. they opened every cd case, book, piece of clothing, comparment in everything....and they didnt even search stefan's bag at all. i felt picked on *sulks*.

the club was bizarre...it had potential but there was no atmosphere whatsoever.
the music was bland and so were the people. oh well.
we ended up back at izzie's drinking and sven and i played pirates until 9am.

we filled up the bath with hot water from kettles and pans (that took us a good few hours) coz there wasnt any real hot water.
then we sailed to cuba with a mast made of broom and cloth, a bottle of rum and a zombina and the skeletones record. and my allycat metalware eyepatch mark gave me.

arr arr.

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-08-12T22:55:00

2005-08-12T21:58:16Z

now give me a kiss and say " i had a real good time baby"

fuck that movie was amazing....me and sven sat in the back row with a bottle of whisky laughing oursleves silly as more and more people walkied ouut of the cinema in disgust. it isen't called the devil's rejects for nothing you stupid imbeciles.

my hair is done....i'll post some pictues when i have some....thanks to nathan for shaving it and asphixine (izzie) for spending 6 hours at my house braiding and stuff....it's cool as.

although my mum said i look like punk trash found on the king's road in 1986.
love.

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-08-09T01:39:00

2005-08-09T00:47:01Z

hum ok so i went round to nathan's today and he shaved two strips out of the side of my hair and its sooooo cute.
also went to finsbury park and bought hair with izzie....on wednsday i shall have pretty black and white hair with curls at the bottom .)
*is ecstatic*
for only £10.46

tomorow i have le work at le speedball ... so on goes the fake emo-ness again and the selling techniques come flooding back lol.

i'm totally fucking devastated me, iz, sven and nate are going to be split up.
im going to art school,
iz is going to dance school (in leeds)
and sven+ nate are going back to australia.

it's not the end of the world
no just the other side of it.

i looked at sven the other day and burst into tears.
*is officially crap*

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-08-06T12:41:00

2005-08-06T11:43:29Z

so today me, izzie, sven and nathan are going to coventry for ms. izzie's birthday....

happy birthday ma petite chérie!

should be most amusant, hopefully not difficult considering the bizarre situation we find ourselves in but we will not go into this on LJ.
nonono.

i keep listening to le tigre.
i fear it might drive me bezerk but i can't stop.

xx_adore_xx @ 2005-08-05T20:01:00

2005-08-05T19:02:59Z

electrogogo was so much fun....me and izzie got photographed for alternative london all night and asia argento dj'ed. hot.
plus i me this guy called john who it turns out has been looking for me since febuary's Torture Garden valentine's ball he's a medical fetishist who's really quite adorable.. All together now aaeewwwwwwwwwwww.
did some poledancing and realised im kinda ok at it. spearmint rhino like here i come. moneymoneymoney.